The C Word: Free at Last?

The day after Xmas I found myself looking at my rear end. The gastroenterologist was positioning a tiny anal camera before she lubed me up and slid it in. It’s a very strange thing indeed to see your own ass in black and white, in front of you on a …

The C Word: 2014

I have a really, really bad memory. I can’t remember one happy holiday spent with close friends or family before I moved out after high school. I’m sure there was some semblance of joy in these yearly occasions but I don’t recall any feelings… good or bad. I do vividly …

The C Word: “next?”

“…don’t go round tonight.They’re bound to take your life. There’s a bad moon on the rise…” I had my annual physical today. I don’t know why I felt the need to get more poked and probed after a rather tumultuous summer. I don’t remember making the appointment but it was …

The C Word: Now what?

The C Word: Now what? “… and I do appreciate you being round. help me get my feet back on the ground..”   I’m from a large family. As my mom says I’m number 7 out of 9 disappointments. As an avid and devoted Star Trek fan (along with all …

The C Word: “take it easy?”

” I don’t need a whole lot of money. I don’t need a big fine car. I’ve got everything that a girl could want. I’ve got more than I could ask for…” So my physician says I’ve got to take it easy. She says the tension between my eyes is …

The C Word: It is what it is…

“this is it, make no mistake where you are, this is it, you’re going no further…”   I know I’m getting better because as the C has abated my other “ailments” have returned. I really didn’t stop working, exercising or writing during my time with Mr. C but I did …

The C Word: WTF ( no really)

“…call me if you’ve got a little kid to raise, call me when junior, junior won’t behave, call me when your in-laws buy the house next door, call me when your husband leaves you for a whore, call me.”   Call me old fashioned, conservative, perhaps even uptight but in …

The C Word: Daytripping

“It’s getting better all the time, getting better and better…” I think I’m over the final hump. You know the one. The one I had to scream, swear and cry to get over these past few weeks. I’m looking at it in my rearview mirror and it’s getting smaller and …

The C Word: “recovery?”

“I did a bad, bad thing… a really bad, bad thing” Today, I looked at my ASS. I wasn’t going to look. I really wasn’t going to, no really. Just like you can’t turn away from an accident I looked. My perspective was a little off ( come on, think …

The C Word ( and so it goes and so it goes, the way its going…)

“ I’ve had the worst week of my life and I’ve never felt this bad before. I swear it’s the truth and I owe it all to you…” If you think Dirty Dancing you can sing along too! Just take out the white people and put cancer in their place …